About (... and the World 🌑 Blog)

The Journey

As the header of this site states, this esoteric blog is over 20 years old. My views, thoughts, and opinions have undergone a massive evolution, and for well over two decades, this space has served as a digital diary, a theological laboratory, and a public record of that metamorphosis. This is not a chronicle of wrong turns, but a documented awakening—a continuous journey from strict religious dogma toward ultimate gnosis.

The Theological & Esoteric Evolution

My academic and spiritual background is deeply rooted in traditional theology; I hold a Masters in Divinity and previously served as a deacon in the Russian Orthodox Christian Church. For a long time, my writing heavily reflected that specific framework, focusing on Orthodox Ecclesiology and the intersections of faith, history, and daily life.

However, a genuine pursuit of knowledge demands the deconstruction of dogma. Today, my focus centers on the Left Hand Path, comparative theology, and Western Esotericism. I analyze the historical taxonomy of adversarial figures in ancient texts, exploring cosmological frameworks like the Qliphoth, the evolution of Jahweh, and the deeper mysteries surrounding Samael and Lilith. Much of this deep-dive primary source research is actively fueling my ongoing book project, Sefer Ha-Lilit.

The Earthly Pursuits

While much of my writing looks toward the celestial, the primordial, and the esoteric, I am firmly grounded in a variety of earthly pursuits.

Professionally, my background includes degree programs in both Business Administration and Computer Science, and I operate as a Lean Six Sigma Master Black Belt. Creatively, I am the author of the epic fantasy novel series, The Vhaidra Saga. 

When I step away from theological research, my interests are highly tactile. I am an avid enthusiast of vintage and re-release Tamiya RC vehicles (and a host of The RC Deep Dive podcast), a lifelong skateboarder until a recent disability ended my skating career, a contributor to many independent skateboard magazines including Double Down Skate Zine, SK8 Skateboarding Magazine, & Backside Skate Mag, and a dedicated player & writer of OSR tabletop role-playing games. You'll likely find me fueled by a rather strict Paleo diet and a soundtrack of 1980s punk, goth, and new wave music. 

The Author

My preferred name is Nik (though you will see me writing under the moniker "Occupant"). I am a father to three wonderful children which are the three most important things in my life, and each a member of a different generation; a Millenial adult, a Gen Z teenager, and an Alpha Generation preteen, while I am a member of Generation X. Thank you for reading, and for joining me on the journey of gnosis.

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